Is it me or is that a phrase that seems to be a little cliche? Jesus is definitely a part of my life although He's very easy to tune out when I feel like it, but "give" my life to Jesus? I'm not too sure about that. My human impulse wants to ease my guilt over my resistance by saying, how can I give Him something that is already His? But in reality, I know I have choices and He will let me make them. Perhaps I haven't endured enough tragedy to push me to a big change, thus giving my life to Him. I've lived a fairly untroubled life. Of course, yes I chose to drink before legal age, yes I have consumed drugs that were not prescribed to me, yes I had kids at a very young age, yes I did smoke. But I felt I could give up all of those vises very easily. I struggle with my husband's "stubbornness" to give up smoking. (I'm not sure if he dose it just to prove that he can still do something I don't approve of or how tight a hold the addiction has on him, or perhaps the mental addiction after years is outweighing the physical addiction). But I digress.
GIVE YOUR LIFE TO JESUS
What does that even mean? You do what Jesus would do? It seems so hard to know exactly what tht is when you live in an era that is completely different from Jesus'. I pray sometimes for Jesus to do with my life what He pleases, but I find it so easy to slip into my old routine without realizing it. Or sometimes I find the time that's most convenient for me to devote to God, may not REALLY be the best time to actually do that (like when you're on the clock, but not working). How does God feel about that? Would Jesus have been working on something He felt personally drawn to when He should have been out preaching about God's word (what I assume would be listed as His profession)?
This blog is just another way that I'm going to try to "give my life to Jesus". Just like planning your morning workout with a friend to hold yourself accountable, you will ALL be my accountability partners when it comes to giving my life to Jesus, once I figure out exactly what that means, among other things.
