"Give your life to Jesus"

Is it me or is that a phrase that seems to be a little cliche? Jesus is definitely a part of my life although He's very easy to tune out when I feel like it, but "give" my life to Jesus? I'm not too sure about that. My human impulse wants to ease my guilt over my resistance by saying, how can I give Him something that is already His? But in reality, I know I have choices and He will let me make them. Perhaps I haven't endured enough tragedy to push me to a big change, thus giving my life to Him. I've lived a fairly untroubled life. Of course, yes I chose to drink before legal age, yes I have consumed drugs that were not prescribed to me, yes I had kids at a very young age, yes I did smoke. But I felt I could give up all of those vises very easily. I struggle with my husband's "stubbornness" to give up smoking. (I'm not sure if he dose it just to prove that he can still do something I don't approve of or how tight a hold the addiction has on him, or perhaps the mental addiction after years is outweighing the physical addiction). But I digress.

GIVE YOUR LIFE TO JESUS

What does that even mean? You do what Jesus would do? It seems so hard to know exactly what tht is when you live in an era that is completely different from Jesus'. I pray sometimes for Jesus to do with my life what He pleases, but I find it so easy to slip into my old routine without realizing it. Or sometimes I find the time that's most convenient for me to devote to God, may not REALLY be the best time to actually do that (like when you're on the clock, but not working). How does God feel about that? Would Jesus have been working on something He felt personally drawn to when He should have been out preaching about God's word (what I assume would be listed as His profession)?

This blog is just another way that I'm going to try to "give my life to Jesus". Just like planning your morning workout with a friend to hold yourself accountable, you will ALL be my accountability partners when it comes to giving my life to Jesus, once I figure out exactly what that means, among other things.

About me

So how about I start with a little bit about myself: I've been around just slightly over 29 years. I used to LOVE to write as a child, but really haven't been doing too much writing lately until a mentor of mine suggested I keep a daily journal. I am also married (to a pretty great man) and we have two kids, Teryn, our daughter, just turned 10 and Michael, our son, is 8 (and 1/2 as he would make sure to remind you). As I mentioned, this mentor suggested I keep a daily journal. If you've ever journaled (apparently Word doesn't think that's a word), you know it requires either quiet solitude or the ability to tune everyone/thing out. If you've ever been a parent, you know those two things are hard to come by. And as a working parent, I feel like the only time I can truly get that is when I'm at work (and supposed to be doing what they pay me for, not journaling ((which is a word in Word))).

Interestingly enough, I just right clicked the red squiggly under "journaled" and one of the options that popped up was "journey". Completely not the word I was going for, but got my mind to thinking about this journey that my journaling has taken me on. I didn't go out and buy the biggest, baddest, 5 subject purple spiral expecting a journey (I bought it because being the avid writer I was as a youth, I thought I would fill up any of the one subject spirals I had at home too quickly). Man was I wrong! I don't know if it was because I got to a point where I actually had to do WORK while I was at work (who saw that one coming? I certainly didn't) or if things just got too far behind at home, like they often will with a busy family that doesn't have a maid.

So here's the start of my online journal/journey/I think they call these newfound contraptions blogs. (On a side note, I once read an article about how to be a successful blogger, where is your Internet reading history when you need it?) I hope I keep you all entertained as well as keep myself on track. I would gladly appreciate any of your comments and suggestions, but please try to be positive, or at the very least constructive. I am after all a mere mortal. I WILL make mistakes, I will have typos, I will manage to not get my point across, I will have opinions that aren't always the best (but don't tell my husband that I've admitted to that ;D). I'm just trying to be a good, Christian woman, and find a balance between work, kids and sanity.